| User | Comment |
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| Oscar |
I starve myself, I'm not sure why, but I never thought of it as self-inflicting of pain. |
| cpierson |
I've slapped myself to wake myself up. Pinched myself _hard_, too. |
Maarten  | | posted 3-Mar-2000 10:13pm |
No way, I´m not a lunatic! |
| mandy | | posted 3-Mar-2000 11:03pm |
I hurt myself frequently as a child/teen along with lashing out at my pets(a thing I will forever be ashamed of and always trying to make amends for). I was extremely unhappy. My parents fought constantly, my father was violent with my mother, they were both alcoholics. My mother was violent with me. I was overweight and unpopular and we were poor. I was filled with the deepest darkest self hatred and despair. I would hit, cut,slap,pinch and bite myself in the privacy of my room as the war was waged around me in my house. I would sob and cry and scream and beg for them to stop fighting.
As a teen I was suicidal at one point, tried to slit my wrists and chickened out. My mother took me to a therapist who was absolutely no help whatsoever. I look back today and wonder how in the hell I survived all that and I am so thankful I did.
My life is so bright and beautiful and wonderful and serene and full of love now. My home is a place of laughter and fun and happiness. I have all the things I ever dreamed of as a child, a wonderful SO, a beautiful daughter, a good job, and all the comforts anyone could ever want.
I am so far from that time of self hatred.
Now, I have turned pain into my friend. I find pleasure there. I now control it whereas it used to control me. I can't fathom the fact now that I almost destroyed myself with it. My relationship with pain has done a complete turn around. |
| mandy | | posted 3-Mar-2000 11:07pm |
Maarten, people who hurt themselves are not lunatics either. They are usually in very deep pain and self inflict as a way of expressing that. They deserve help not ridicule. |
| magbast | | posted 3-Mar-2000 11:21pm |
i used to punch walls when i was younger...outta frustration and would hurt myself (not intentionally though) |
| anonymous | | posted 4-Mar-2000 10:35am |
My nipples aren't very sensitive and pinching them hard is just about the only way to get any feeling out of them. |
| Enheduanna |
I remember deliberately falling while roller-skating and scraping up my knees once when I was younger, I think basically for the attention I knew I would get (not that I had an attention starved or unhappy childhood at all). That's the only instance I remember, and it strikes me as fairly atypical of my usual behavior. I don't generally go out of the way to cause myself physical pain. Psychic pain is another story, though... |
| anonymous |
All of these options are present tense or future tense- either "I'd never do it," or "I do it," but you left off all the possibilities for "I used to do it, but got over it entirely." Whatever you're going through now, may not last your entire life, really. It doesn't have to be in your sense of who you are, it's just something you're going through right now. Someday you may just look back and shake your head and say "I'm glad I got through that." |
| Eeah |
Anon - I do have "I used to hurt myself when I was younger".
That should work. It's amazing I got this past the qualification stage because people seemed to think I had too many answers in the first place.
Although-- Here's my argument with that...
People complain about long surveys but they come here to complete surveys-- one after another... I don't see why anyone should really be upset with a survey that gives you a lot of answers to choose from.
If you don't have enough answers they'll dog about that as well. If it's not one thing it's another, and I don't plan on ever trying to please everyone. |
| anonymous |
I used to do it quite regularly. Not in at least 3-4 years. |
| drdt |
When driving on serious sleep dep, I frequently smack myself on the head repeatedly to keep myself awake until the next rest stop.
More mundanely (and more on topic) I chew my fingers constantly. Mostly absent-minded nibbling, it doesn't hurt unless I do it for too long, and whenever there is blood I get embarassed (but I don't stop).
I am really, really amused at the image 'I beat myself up' calls to mind.
I know people who used to hurt themselves 'in a controlled way' and I never understood it, but I never understood my friends who killed themselves either.
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| Eeah | | posted 5-Mar-2000 10:57pm |
I'm a bit upset over this whole.. " My wrists are itching" thing.. It's driving me mad. Have any of you ever experienced anything like this? |
| mandy | | posted 5-Mar-2000 11:49pm |
no baby  |
| supplicant |
The times I've cut and burned myself (always been both together on the same place) I was extremely bored and it was something interesting to do. I've always loved scars, and now I have some neat ones  It's generally not a particularly healthy thing to do (mentally or physically) but I actually feel for me it sort of was. I have no regrets, would do it the same way again etc. I learnt things about the body and gained some knowledge about myself and some self-confidence and lost nothing - I suspect my experiences and motivations are not typical, but who knows? I also have a twisted and perhaps misplaced pride about it most would probably find sickening/worrying. Eeah: for me long surveys are not a problem to answer, it's when you are trying to make some sense of the results that it starts to become a big problem. |
| mary | | posted 6-Mar-2000 11:19am |
Thank god that part of my life is in the past. I think it was my teenage hormones causing such deep and depressing emotions. |
| seanhuxter | | posted 6-Mar-2000 11:24am |
I bite my fingernails. That hurts sometimes... But that's a compulsion I can't explain. The rest of the list makes my skin crawl... must purge the feeling... MUST CUT!!!! |
| Matt |
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| SueBee | | posted 7-Mar-2000 12:46am |
As a kid, I used to stick a safety pin thru the skin on my hand, just toward the surface, but not for the purpose of hurting myself so much as it seeming cool to have a safety pin hanging from my skin. I didn't often draw blood.
I have no self control and often scratch myself raw if I have an insect bite, or some other itch. I can't stop even though I know I'm hurting myself, but it's to relieve the itch, so I guess it's not really what you mean here. |
| Oscar | | posted 7-Mar-2000 10:26am |
SueBee: I used to stick safety pins through my hand when I was little too. I think it was just because it was cool to have a pin sticking out of my hand. |
| ILJ |
Oscar, SueBee: I used to put straight pins through the dead skin on either side of my fingernails and taunt my sister with my Freddy-Kreuger-esque pin-fingers. Later when I took them out, I was fascinated by all the little holes... |
| mandy |
I used to do that with safety pins too...I loved to see them embedded under my skin in the fleshy part of my palm. Yum! |
| Lauren | | posted 8-Mar-2000 10:14pm |
I have actaully hurt myself before. I would throw myself down the stairs. I don't know why I did it, I just felt I had too. Somewhere inside of me I was deeply depressed. I still am sometimes, but I haven't hurt myself in over half a year. I am trying to deal with this on my own. |
| joachim | | posted 15-Mar-2000 7:16pm |
Yeah for a while in high school I was into relatively mild self-inflicted pain, like sticking my arms with needles and that sort of stuff. It was fun and basically didn't hurt very much but freaked people out. I got sent to a shrink after cutting my hand with a kitchen knife, which was kind of a different thing. The shrink went away after a month or so, the scar is kinda cool looking, and I go through life a little bit more comfortable that if some sort of pain-related sacrifice should ever be required of me, I should hopefully be up to it. So for me things turned out pretty well. |
| joachim | | posted 15-Mar-2000 7:25pm |
I'm curious about the relationship between self-inflicted pain and suicide. I have never been suicidal and I suspect I don't really understand people who are. On the other hand, the idea of hurting myself always seemed pretty cool to me, I guess mostly because I like the idea that I can "tough it out". Those who know me know what a tough guy I am :)
Damn, I have got to figure out how to make smileys. Why oh why do I keep hurting myself with these lousy smileys? I'm no damned good and never was! |
| ILJ | | posted 15-Mar-2000 9:23pm |
joachim: You need to include the nose... : plus - plus ) equals  |
| anonymous | | posted 31-Mar-2000 11:03pm |
I cut myself when I need a quick blood fix. Never for any other reason. |
| anonymous | | posted 31-Mar-2000 11:09pm |
I crave blood and sometimes I cut myself when I can't control it any longer and need a quick blood fix. Never for any other reason. This is something I try very hard not to do anymore for various reasons but addictions are addictions and sometimes my strength breaks down and I give in. |
| Zang | | posted 30-Apr-2000 3:29am |
This has got to be the longest list of options I've seen in a survey. It looks the the product of a warped mind. |
| mandy | | posted 30-Apr-2000 3:56am |
*smiles proudly knowing Eeah would appreciate that compliment* |
| Matt | | posted 1-May-2000 12:59am |
:) |
| mandy |
Matt...had a dream about you last night. I was scratching the back of your hand with my fingernails until it was all bloody and torn up, while we sat and chatted in a pub. |
| Matt | | posted 2-May-2000 11:48pm |
And we were chatting about what? |
| mandy |
beer and sex...what else? |
| Matt |
Now THATS a good dream! ;) |
| SueBee |
So, THAT'S why I woke up with claw marks all over me! I thought it was the aliens. |
| Eeah | | posted 23-May-2000 12:58am |
:) |
| Matt | | posted 24-May-2000 12:52am |
:)~ |
| Richard | | (reply to mandy) posted 11-Jun-2000 9:12pm |
That must have been scary! :( |
