Forum: General Topic: Lack of motivation Author Message kitti723 #1 posted May 17, 2004 at 11:28pm (EST)   I want to do something really bad to her but I have no motivation. And it would have to look like an accident & I don't think I could really do it. Well maybe I could, something small and innocent and not too awful. Maybe I'll put a little sugar in her bed so it's gritty and makes her uncomfortable. I don't know. Let me know if you have any good ideas.

Forum: General Topic: Grandmother died...obituary Author Message kitti723 #2 posted May 17, 2004 at 11:07pm (EST)   A beautiful soul. Someone to look up to and admire. I never knew my grandparents. You are lucky to have. It makes me smile to imagine this accomplished woman. You must be amazing yourself just to have been influenced by her. Think of yourself and of her and smile that she is part of you. kitti723 #3 posted May 17, 2004 at 9:27am (EST)   This woman was obviously very accomplished. I am sure you were privlidged to have known her. I find comfort in death by believing that they are with those who have gone before them. My condolensces and best wishes to you and your family.

Forum: General Topic: Lack of motivation Author Message kitti723 #4 posted May 16, 2004 at 8:28pm (EST)   My SO's sister dyed something in the washing machine and I did my laundry after she dyed all of her sheets and towels fuschia. So now all of my work pants, which should be khaki, are pink. kitti723 #5 posted May 16, 2004 at 10:05am (EST)   thnx for the response, i guess things go a little deeper than what i've admitted to. i am on medication. i was considering not taking it anymore but that was the state i was in when i came here. without it i am very unpleasant and with it i don't seem to care either way. i often wonder if i am sedate to please those around me. it simply makes me easier to deal with & if you recall correctly I can be a mess to deal with.

Forum: General Topic: Happy Birthday Suebee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Author Message kitti723 #6 posted May 16, 2004 at 1:27am (EST)   Happy Birthday to you. Happy Birthday to you. Happy Birthday dear Suebeeeeee! Happy Birthday to you. And many more.

Forum: General Topic: Lack of motivation Author Message kitti723 #7 posted May 15, 2004 at 10:59pm (EST)   I am having serious trouble giving a crap about anything. I really am not bothered by this which I know is a bad thing. I just don't care if I bathe or have clean clothes. I do get up and brush my teeth and hair and put on makeup before I go to work but that's usually the most I can muster up. I used to really into taking a bath and relaxing and I always cleaned my house when I had a day off but lately it seems I just don't care. I don't feel particularly depressed either. It's more of a nothing kind of feeling. I want to excercise but I bring myself to do it. I can't bring myself to do anything. Everything is such an effort. I came home from my vacation and my SO and his sister, who I live with, had done absolutely nothing. The house was a pig sty. They hadn't even done dishes or taken out the trash in over a week. It stunk when I walked in and it made me feel like I was the house keeper or something. So now I quit cleaning up after them and leave their mess where they left it. I guess I'm just feeling like, if they don't care, why should I but I feel like it's bleeding over into every aspect of my life. I do live her rent free but I don't think I should be expected to earn my room & board. They don't pay rent either. It's their dad's house. Do you think I should earn my keep? I don't know what to think. Actually I try not to think about it. It interupts my "Me" time. That was supposed to be funny.

Forum: General Topic: Update on my father Author Message kitti723 #8 posted May 15, 2004 at 10:38pm (EST)   Best wishes to you and your family. I am glad to hear things are well. You must be relieved. Take a breath & get some rest.

Forum: General Topic: hey guess what Author Message kitti723 #9 posted May 15, 2004 at 10:36pm (EST)   what was so loud? where were you at the time of the potential explosion? just wondering.

Forum: General Topic: Remember this when we feel we should just lay down and be complacent Author Message kitti723 #10 posted May 15, 2004 at 10:34pm (EST)   I don't understand what you mean by "wrong religion". Would you please explain. Next page (only 10 shown here)